My First Born

This is Abby. She is my first born. I've seen her dead once. I never want that to happen again in my life time.
When she was born there were problems. It took too long or it happen too fast. The cord wrapped around her neck. She was not breathing when she birthed. She was purple and lifeless. Not a damn thing I could do about it either. I didn't need to do anything. We had incredible nurses who knew exactly what to do. They cleared her lungs and gave her CPR. It was heartwrenching to see all your hopes, dreams and future on a tiny little table fade away with every compression on her chest.
That when my life changed. That is when I learned what really mattered to me.